im poor ill try it
ooohhh i have to try this
I don’t go out because i don’t want to meet people. I don’t go out because I’m terrified of getting closer with someone. Because I’ve been torn apart over and over… I don’t think i can handle having friends again and then our friendship falling apart. I would die.
I don’t think ill know what to do once i get my own store. Ill leave Castleton and the life I’ve known for four and a half years now. My life and my friends are here. I just cant start over from that…
I suppose i hate november and thanksgiving because of everything I’ve allowed my dumb ass self to go through. Im not thankful for much but i am thankful for Hayla Nick and Ryan. Hayla has been my best friend for ten years now. She and i both know I’m an idiot and I’m thankful she loves me anyways. Nick is the most loving amazing boyfriend and best friend i could ask for. Ryan, even though we don’t talk that much anymore, is still my great friend even though we both know i don’t deserve to ever even hear his voice after everything I’ve put him through. Im thankful for my mom and my brother noah. Im thankful for my job. Working at hot topic has been the only thing in the world keeping me pulled together and strong. Though i cant be friends with the people i work with i still appreciate them. They know how retarded and crazy i am on all sorts of levels. Im especially thankful for the most amazing, patient boss, Nate.
Im bitter and angry with my self. I have been for a long time… but I’m thankful that I’m finally starting over new and that my life has been more smiles and laughter than yelling and being angry at everything.
Things have been slowing getting better for me. I used to have a terrible time with loneliness now i can handle it.
Nick and i are still going strong. Im happy that he finally called me his girlfriend last week and called me that again 2 nights ago. We still cant get enough of each other. I hate that he works so much but i think it helps keep the mystery alive and it is beautiful and refreshing. He always asks what and i always reply its nothing but recently it slipped out as its something…. But its nothin lol. I think words may be exchanged soon but I’m still not sure. I cant say it first. I wont say it first. I love to easily and i need to know its real from him. Actually i know its real i just have to hear him say it first even if it takes years.
WTF I CAN’T BREATHE OMFG WHAT IS THIS!?!@
the true story
You say you want to get better. Well, a big part of that is your ability to answer your phone or even give us a call back. I don’t like to give up on my co-workers but YOU haven’t given me any reasons to keep you around.